don’t even know what to do anymore. i loved someone who was supposed to be my peace, someone i trusted with my heart and my scars, my depression, and my darkest moments. i thought he would care, that he would be there when i needed him most, but he isn’t. he gets angry, pushes me away, stays cold, and repeats the same things over and over, even when i’ve told him exactly how much it hurts me. he’s seen me hurt myself, he’s seen me crying, he’s seen me broken, and still he does nothing. he says he loves me, he cries, he apologizes, he promises he’ll change but then he does it all over again. i keep coming back because i love him, because i hope that maybe this time it will be different, but it never is. i’m exhausted, disappointed, and i feel like i’m losing myself piece by piece. sometimes i wonder if he even loves me at all or if he just likes having me here when i’m fragile. i don’t know how to stop loving someone who hurts me so much, even when i know they’re wrong. i’m scared, i’m hurt, and i feel trapped between wanting to leave and being unable to. i just don’t know what’s right anymore, and i need advice because i can’t figure out how to save myself from this cycle.

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