Did I give up on my divorce too fast?

Question

i married a horrible man who pretended he loved me for a long time .... he hurt me so much in so many ways ( insultes, manipulation , fiancial abuse , isolation , and even physical abuse)... until he finally kicked me out of the house ( i was paying the rent and all bills  and i bought all the fourniture ) ... so i filled for divorce ... it has been 6 month with no contact with him and i have not been able to have my stuff back ( not Even my own clothes) ... the last time i saw him in court he said he wanted me back... i didn't speak to him or even look at him ... but now i find myself constantly asking " did i make the right choice by filling for divorce or was it the worst mistake of my life " i loved  him so much for so long .... did i give him up too fast ? i know i'm crazy for thinking this .... but i can't help myself.
ps: we don't have kids.

Lemon_34495 🇶🇦 · Accepted Answer

no you are mistaken for taking that disicion and you're not crazy for doubting yourself, sometimes we need to hear from someone else specially cause it is not an easy trip to take, hope you are not doing alone, i hope you have enough support to help you through it

Strawberry_79819 🇩🇿 · Answer

thank you for saying this i really needed to hear it .... you're so kind

Kiwi_79768 🇩🇿 · Answer

the fact that he clicked u out of the house is unforgettable and u already did the biggest move to divorce him , don't look back to the old time when u were in love , mariage is not about love anymore it's about المودة و الرحمة and as females we always rethink about such actions but u can make it better so leave before it's too late since u have no kids

Strawberry_79819 🇩🇿 · Answer

i got out of the abuse , but i feel like lost everything in the process .... i feel like my life has been ruined ... that i will never find a man that will love me for who i am because i'm too damaged ... i'm scared and lonely

Biscuit_78863 🇩🇿 · Answer

You can't blame yourself for giving him your heart at first , in fact many couples change after marriage when it comes to treatment or even their personal cleanliness. It is what it is and trust me you have nothing to regret about in the other hand you you got it back your life, nothing is late you can keep taking care of yourself and doing whatever you want because you financially independent too