I can't stop self-harming and blaming myself

Question

i have panic attacks / and i always hurt myself
i cannot quite selfharming
i just can't stop blaming myself for everything
i have big anger issues that makes me hurt myself and whatever is beside me
i want to end it soon i just cannot with myself
im tired

Pineapple_80421 🇩🇿 · Answer

your body is always here for you, doing the best it can to keep you warm, just like you in every situation you went through, you were doing your best, I am sending you a big hug, and wishing you can see yourself as the human you are, as if you were your friend or your little sibling, I am sure you'd want to hug them and tell them it's not all their fault, I hope you can do the same to yourself 💌🧸

Cherry_80972 🇩🇿 · Answer

thank you so much hun it melted my heart, i'm too exhausted istg i cannot stand my self anymore i wanted to end it today ,i almost did lol 
but something is stopping me
thank you for the hug ! i'll take your advice and try my best to be better
im just ashamed of my scars uk they're everywhere in my body

Pineapple_80421 🇩🇿 · Answer

you shouldn't be ashamed at all, it's your battle that probably no one knows of it ! so wear it proudly ! but don't hurt your body anymore pls, and don't leave this world I'm sure what's stopping you is a beautiful something that wants to be experienced by you in the future. if you want to reach out to me let me know, I've been through this and I know just how much it's unbearable

Biscuit_78863 🇩🇿 · Answer

I'm glad that you decided to stop it and you not the kind who enjoys that , there's no shame to see a therapist and step by step you'll get fully healed inchalah also i don't think it's something you can share with your friend irl they can make fun or use it against you , and you definitely you not stable for relationships , he can easily gives you all love and attention you need then he just goes

Cherry_80972 🇩🇿 · Answer

was it easy for you to stop? and please are you a girl ? is it easy to feel that way? m feelin so low

Pineapple_80421 🇩🇿 · Answer

it wasn't easy and I still till now have the urge to do it sometimes (I've been clean for 5 years now) but I don't give on the urges, and it happened like a click a shift in my mind that made me take the decision of never going back to doing it, I know you're feeling so low I feel you

Pineapple_80421 🇩🇿 · Answer

friends and anyone who can support her irl are very important especially right now, everyone has to be careful to not share their secrets with people who lack empathy and im sure she is aware of it, but sharing it with people who are healthy is very much important

Biscuit_78863 🇩🇿 · Answer

i totally agree, thanks for giving attention to her

Cherry_80972 🇩🇿 · Answer

can i pls have ur snap , im literally sobbin rn

Pineapple_80421 🇩🇿 · Answer

I can't give it publicly so I'm gonna make a post in which you can send me a private msg ok? look for it