Trapped in a loveless marriage—I regret everything

Question

it is a very complicated issue.I am married with a son and I feel like I am out of love with my husband.i have wanted to leave the relationship for a long time even before we got married but he begged and shortly after I got pregnant.i really regret getting married and wish I could go back in time there are so many things I would change.i wish I left when I could but now its so complicated and I wouldn’t know where to start.in a  country where i know no one except him and he’s the one that foots majority of the bills so leaving now isn’t an option,I wouldn’t survive.he makes me do things I don’t want to do,is very manipulative,abusive emotionally and  physically occasionally.its just a blend of everything and I feel lost.i have lost myself and don’t know who i am anymore.i long for who I used to be.i feel lost ,I no longer have passion to do things i used to do.a shell of 
my former self.

Hazelnut_52786 🇪🇬 · Accepted Answer

Protect yourself first by setting boundaries and secretly preparing—save important documents, contacts, and small funds if possible.
Seek support from women’s groups, helplines, or trusted people online to gain clarity and strength.
Slowly build independence—emotionally and financially—so when the time is right, you can leave safely and reclaim your life.

Cookies_33759 🇪🇬 · Answer

Are you in Egypt?

Ice Cream_63106 🇪🇬 · Answer

The best option for you is divorce
If you know someone you  trust in the country that you live now, ask her for help.
Or  tell your family and they can help you to get divorced.

Sugar_43509 🇶🇦 · Answer

if you’re really stuck, then you don’t have any other option except for taking care of yourself and your kids and try to go to couple therapy or you yourself try searching what could help, but just focus on your kids because they exist now and surely you don’t want them to be victims of divorce.

Croissant_66460 🇪🇬 · Answer

I always say that you should not have children immediately after marriage and you should wait at least two years for the couple to get to know each other deeply, because during the engagement period you do not get to know the person you are with well. 
But since you already have children I advise you to take care of them and their psychological health. If your husband has a bad temper then divorce

Cherry_66471 🇬🇧 · Answer

thank you so much for this.thats exactly what I’ve been thinking of doing but how do I even save up with which funds when I have no job and the main income is what he does.i am really going through depression and smiling everyday.bo one knows what I face and how I feel

Hazelnut_52786 🇪🇬 · Answer

“I truly feel you and every word you said, and I know what you’re hiding inside is probably much bigger than what you can even express. Facing all this alone is so hard, but I’m here to listen and understand you without any judgment.Tell me more.maybe letting it out will make your soul feel a bit lighter. If you’d like to talk more privately and comfortably I can share my Telegram account with you