dreading birthday Real Stories - 1 Experiences, Advice & Support

Marshmallow_51920 🇯🇴

4 months ago

Feeling Stressed

I hate my birthday so so much. the last good birthday I had was my 16th birthday then everything went downhill. I’m turning 18 in few days and I really don’t want that day to come. I just don’t want a birthday anymore, I wish everyone would forget about it (including me). it’s so stressful and I fee

I feel so drained and cry after socializing

i have a really weird problem when i finish any interaction with anyone and even with my closest friends or after college or family gatherings whenever i return I feel like I’ve spent a huge amount of energy and i cry so much even if nothing happened the only think that makes me feel better is when i go to sleep after that to forget and also to be isolated for a while but I’m really tired of this feeling i just want to know if there’s someone feel the same way I don’t even want to talk to anyone because of that feeling afterwards I tried many times to communicate but every time i try i feel this heavy feeling ...see more

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She Feeds Off Negativity & Won't Move On

I really don't know anymore. I have a problem with someone. She always nit picks problems. Even tho everything is fine, she'll always find a way to create some. At this point I feel like she just feeds off negativity. She will say she hates being angry but lacks the self awareness of realising that she seeks it out. She'll bring stuff up from 15 years ago and throw it in my face, we could have a normal conversation and she'll just yank it out of nowhere. To her that's normal, to her it's normal that she refuses to move on. People who've been to jail don't get shit brought up like that. Or that moment when everything was fine and then she decides to throw water in my face and tell me that it was satisfying... why the hostility? She can feel however she likes and not that many people bat an eye, but when I snap it's a big deal. I don't really know who's in the wrong anymore. I just really wanted to get this off my chest. I feel like it's unfair but I also feel guilty, like I'm missing the final piece that will tell me if I'm in the wrong or not and it will magically help me move on from this. I feel like I always have to be okay with everything but it's fine if she is sensitive to the whole world. Taking stuff and inconveniences from the past and blowing everything out of proportion. I don't know why anyone treats her like an adult. I want some piece and acceptance from her but that's never going to happen. ...see more

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Suicidal thoughts every hour but I know it's not a real fix

How does it feel when you have suicidal thoughts every single hour but you're so sure that you'll never do it one day cuz u just know that's a fake solution and we can't even say that's a solution and ur also not that person, and these thoughts and the idea of being dead immediately, just wont stop showing up into your mind every moment!! ...see more

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