i know allah is the best of planers ,he knows the best for me and i am so greatful forever no matter what ! I just feel. and think . i feel unseen ,unwanted ,undesireble. i feel blurred in the background. no one wants me among everyone else .no mater what i am just that nice girl who is always there but never the center of attention. i mean yeah everyone who knows me love me so much and i love them just as much . but i am unseen by others , by men . is there something wrong with me ? is it god s test for my patience or is it a sign i should open up more ? i feel this ache in my chest , that fear from an empty future that makes me question who i am . Should i change? the thing is i love who i am . i love how i think how much i care and love i love how bad i feel when i cause harm and how great i feel if i help and cause a smile . and how i see the good in the bad . i love how i love me . i feel bad for myself. when i am i gonna be enough i am more than a height, more than a pimple, more than a posture. i am a heart that loves and a soul that prayes and a mind that thinks (a lot ) and a body that does for me and for others.

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