I Lost My Spark & No One Noticed 😔

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hii guysss , well am here to share my thoughts and my emotions Which I've been feeling lately almost the last two years till now well i feel like i lost my self i lost my spark nd no one noticed bcs am the kind of people who don't like to share his problems nd emotions to everyone even frinds and family, am 22yo by the way but i feel am 35 yo or 40yo when am with people same age as me or bigger with 2 or 3 years than me i feel like i don't belong to them i feel there is a big gap between us i lost my smile that never left my face i became very cold and nonchalant i pushe people away from me even if i love them i became Aggressive even to my family members I wasn't like this where is the old me I want it back !!!!

Coffee_80453 🇩🇿 · Accepted Answer

is there something that changed u ? and u became like that ! if there is , face it, express it , write it down even if its random

Cookies_57780 🇪🇬 · Answer

that's pretty relatable brother, I'm 17 though, I always feel like I'm in my twenties already

Cherry_80972 🇩🇿 · Answer

totally feelin you , in fact i feel that i don't even have the right to be happy , i lost it and i feel so different 
what happened to you tho? what made u be like that talk it out maybe we could help you!

Pineapple_80682 🇩🇿 · Answer

it's so awkward to feel  like u don't belong anywhere

Pineapple_80376 🇩🇿 · Answer

i know that feeling, i already got it when i was dispointed by some people in my life, now i have my spark again, knowing that i have to love me, there is only 1 life to live, i'll regret all the missing time thinking of negative things, and the most important thing is that Allah is with me, he gave me a part of his soul to live and to care about that soul, to feed it with Quran...Allah is the key

Avocado_80704 🇩🇿 · Answer

must be something happened to y ,dont ignore it and face it

Pineapple_80682 🇩🇿 · Answer

Many things happened to me during this period, but nothing really big happened to push me to lose myself that way  perhaps because of the accumulation, because the chaos is not around me, but rather inside me

Pineapple_80682 🇩🇿 · Answer

sameee i feel like It's choking me , some times i tell myself maybe Focus on details nd this thing stole my happiness

Coffee_80453 🇩🇿 · Answer

then face it ! ask ur self , why are you aggressive towards ur family ? is it ur problem ? there problem? why you feel that way , try to write so u can reorder things ,its a good step that u shared ur thougts here part of the healing,  hope you'll be better and the spark get back ten time better 🧜🏻‍♀️

Blueberry_78812 🇩🇿 · Answer

I am not the concerned, but thank you for your very nice words😭💗

Pineapple_80682 🇩🇿 · Answer

yeaah people always  despointed but i tell my self it's okey it happened bcs of me bcs I raised my expectations and said fuck it but it's kill me inside + ur right allah is always the key but sometimes Back to square one  it's really hard

Pineapple_80682 🇩🇿 · Answer

hmmm not really i think it's the accumulations

Coffee_80453 🇩🇿 · Answer

thank u , u so sweet

Pineapple_80682 🇩🇿 · Answer

Sometimes I really feel that no one understands me. This is the big problem nd the bigger problem is that I cannot explain what is inside me nd explain it to people nd when I try to explain it in a superficial way and it makes it seem ridiculous, then I become angry because they did not get the idea across+ thanks girl ur so sweet 🥹🫶

Blueberry_81034 🇩🇿 · Answer

u just grow up

Coffee_80453 🇩🇿 · Answer

don't expect from people to understand u , its ur life ur problem you the one who's going through this , and u the one who is going to heal urself by yourself,  and don't blame people for not getting u ,  evryone has enough problems to deal with .

Pineapple_80682 🇩🇿 · Answer

you're right